Monday, December 9, 2013
Sunday, September 22, 2013
The Best in me
I never really thought about it before. But when I think about it now, I am beginning to realize.. beginning to understand.
I was best at things, at least I thought I was, considering the company I kept or the environment I grew up in. I was capable of achieving things..greatness. I used to be a guy with a lot of potential. Well I still am. A guy with a lot of "Potential".
My wife used to say this all the time and she thought she would turn that around and make me realize that. She wanted me to make the best of what I had, wanted me to be the best at everything I did or what she had planned for us. She gave her best to make that a reality. How I wish she could see that happening.
But then I would hold her in my arms and look into her loving eyes and tell her that I was already the best of what I could ever be..and that I love her and to me nothing else mattered. Everything else was a consequence and the right one.
I would tell her that I could take anything with the promise that I would see her at the end of the day..that I would see the love she has for me and that alone is the greatest strength of mine.
She is my strength and she is my weakness. I was and would be the best of myself only when I am with my wife...with my bujji...my sharmi.
My equation with God had changed 2 and half years ago. I and my wife were denied mercy. He left me when I needed him the most..when I asked for the love of my life. I can understand the punishment to me..perhaps I hurt too many hearts...but what did my poor sharmi do that He took her away from me. She hadn't seen anything yet.
I wont be long bujji.. cant wait to be with you. I guess I ll have words with him face to face.
I was best at things, at least I thought I was, considering the company I kept or the environment I grew up in. I was capable of achieving things..greatness. I used to be a guy with a lot of potential. Well I still am. A guy with a lot of "Potential".
My wife used to say this all the time and she thought she would turn that around and make me realize that. She wanted me to make the best of what I had, wanted me to be the best at everything I did or what she had planned for us. She gave her best to make that a reality. How I wish she could see that happening.
But then I would hold her in my arms and look into her loving eyes and tell her that I was already the best of what I could ever be..and that I love her and to me nothing else mattered. Everything else was a consequence and the right one.
I would tell her that I could take anything with the promise that I would see her at the end of the day..that I would see the love she has for me and that alone is the greatest strength of mine.
She is my strength and she is my weakness. I was and would be the best of myself only when I am with my wife...with my bujji...my sharmi.
My equation with God had changed 2 and half years ago. I and my wife were denied mercy. He left me when I needed him the most..when I asked for the love of my life. I can understand the punishment to me..perhaps I hurt too many hearts...but what did my poor sharmi do that He took her away from me. She hadn't seen anything yet.
I wont be long bujji.. cant wait to be with you. I guess I ll have words with him face to face.
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